I've said all this to say... even though I have finished Alpha and should be going on to the next set of videos which is Beta.. I'm doing Alpha over again. Not because I'm disappointed with the results but because this time around I know that I can nail every work out. When I first began... I was pausing those videos because I knew I was going to pass out. Now? I go straight through each video without stopping. I've basically memorized each one and go through them with no problem. I may also just be scared of Beta.. I've heard some things about it but I won't watch any of those videos until I start it.
When I began this new lifestyle a little over a year ago, I was really concerned with what the scale was saying and I would be disappointed if I didn't see results I wanted. I'm learning that what works for everyone else will not work for me. I'm in a situation where I can't eat as clean as I want. That in turn, turns me off completely of eating things I should actually eat. I just go.. welp.. they don't have this so I guess I have to have this fattening food right here. But I've come to just accept that this will be a slow progress for me to reach my long term goals and being so hard on myself won't get me anywhere.
I went to a party this past weekend and my family who hadn't seen me in a while just kept talking about how skinny I was. Only when that happened did I realize that I had actually gotten smaller even though the scale does not move at all. My inches have somewhat decreased but still.... the mirror...tape measure and scale all tell a different story. So I'm just accepting this route I've chosen to take.. a slow one. I do what I can as far as eating is concerned but the working out part I have down packed. But yea... slow and steady is going to win this race for me.
side note, end note? whatever... I don't want to be skinny.. I want to be fit.